I don't even know man. I haven't been on here since Sunday since the apparant "incident" happened". I was sick on Monday and Tuesday, and have worked rather hard yesterday and today. Anyways, I couple of folks called me up on the phone and told me something crazy was going on on here as well as I chatted with someone earlier tonight. I guess I'm just gonna just go with what comes out of me here as I type, so please bear with me. Excuse my spelling and the one single paragrapgh seeing as how I'm no English professor. I'm not sure if I should defend myself or apologize. I guess I'll just start with me. I've been on this forum since about 98-99 or so. I've seen alot of people come and go. Just because I've been here so long does not by any means mean that I deserve, respect, or need any preferential treatment. I'm just me. I've never ever in my entire life tried to be anything other than myself. I'm rather proud of that. I make mistakes just like any other human has, does, and always will....I'll never be perfect and never have tried to be. I don't consider myself a comedian. I somewhat consider myself a humorist. I like to make people laugh. I always have and I always will. I'm not everyone's cup of tea. I personally think that I can be waaaaaaaay overbearing and waaaaay out there for alot of people's tastes. I totally respect the fact that alot of people don't like me. That's what makes us human. I don't really apologize for anything I said either. Either ya got it or ya didn't. However, I can totally interpret how someone from the middle of nowhere that knows nothing about me could recognize as what I stated as offensive. I understand that. I think everyone has a different sense of humor..which they should. It's what makes us all individuals. However, sometimes I just think it's a bad thing that people only see the bad sides of us instead of our better sides. What I stated could be taken as racially offensive, and now that I look back I shouldn't have stated it. But I can't take that back. However, it's ashamed that some folks only see that side of me. I'm soooooooooooo much more than that. I've never been one to brag. I've never told yall about all the money I've given to charities. I've never told yall about me helping out to build houses with Habitat For Humanity. I never stated the race of the people I saved from drowning in the ocean that time. That stuff don't matter to me. That's not what life is about to me man. I just want to be a good person and a good human and if I were to die tommorrow, I know that I've been those. Sure I make wisecracks...and all of the time I might add. Does that mean theyr's funny to you? No...does that mean they're funny to me? yes. Does that make them correct? no. But I think at the end of the day some people get me. If you don't get me...I totally respect that man. Totally!! I want each and every single one of you to understand how much I respect, appreciate, and validate yalls opinion.