Ever have a day where you know everything is wrong but you cant' do anything about it? Where your future hangs in the balance because of stupid **** you've done and you'd give anything to fix it but dammit, its just not that easy?
Today was easily the worst day I've had in a long, long time. I'm so depressed I feel sick, I can't eat, I can't sleep, and I can only be cheerful for so long because then I remember why I'm so ****ed. I hate myself and the things I've done, and I'm ready to turn over a new leaf and get a fresh start, but it sucks that it takes something huge like this to make me realize what a fool I am, what I've done, and what I really want out of life. I just hope its not too late.
Sorry. Wish me luck, bros. This ****'s out of hand and I don't know what I'll do if I can't make it right.